I've been a spanko since I could read. I became a submissive when I started to understand the nuances of my particular kink. My spanking interest has always been tied to a maternalistic style. I eventually started to understand that I was hardwired to want and need punishment. I don't get turned on by pain, as I'm not a masochist but rather the idea of punishments from mommy, which is what I call a want. With that said, there is also an emotional component to wanting to feel vulnerable, embarrassed, submissive, and very well punished. That state of being is comforting in the hands of a loving woman. One thing that's tied to that is obedience. I'm actually quite independent and self-reliant because I'm uncomfortable being dependent on someone else. Which is why I think being obedient is relaxing for me. Those are what I would call a need. This is why a Domestic Discipline (DD) and Female Led Relationship (FLR) with the mommy dynamic is perfect for me.
I think it's important to state this only works for me because I love and trust my mommy, who is also very much my significant other who I think of as more than my girlfriend. The DD and FLR is an important part of our relationship, but it does not define it.
As far as BDSM, it's not entirely my thing. That's not to say there are not components that interest me, and I do find it intriguing exploring these things with mommy, but ultimately they have to make sense within my headspace for me to be interested in it. So, whips, floggers, etc and latex is not exactly something mommy would punish her boy with. However, being a good boy, me, my butt and everything else belongs to my mommy, and she decides what she does with it. She allows my input, but ultimately it's her decision in regards to what she does to me.
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